October 8, 2013

Attachment: Something I have yet to overcome

Dealing with so many different people everyday is fun and exciting. You  have the opportunity to learn other cultures in many ways, whether it is intentional or just by accident. With my job, I am vulnerable to emotional attachment. This is the time when I wish I have a shut down button on my brain to let my it stop functioning for a while. I am all aware that these people don't give a shit about me after the lesson, but I can't just stop myself from caring about them. I guess I was born this way or I just don't have the courage to be a heart of stone. Being keen to detail is good but sometimes would lead me to trouble. I am glad no matter how crazy I am for so many things, I never go insane literally. I know that I can learn to control my emotions but I also know that it will take time. Although I don't show it that much, it is sometimes noticeable. 

I always hold on to promises and I take note even the minute ones. I have received so many promises in my field of work and I would say 90 % of them were not fulfilled which make me ask why people make them without even considering the outcome if they break them. Maybe, this should be the nature of humans. I hope I can do the same but I can't because I am haunted by my conscience whenever I try to do so. I guess I have to learn to ignore promises.I will do my best to overcome each one of them step by step. 

I must put this on top of my list of New Year's resolutions. 


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