A Choice

Solitary Chair

Even the best fall down sometimes. Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.- Collide Howdie day

You are trying to get your sleep in the middle of a quiet night when suddenly your mind drifted to an event of your life you considered the happiest. You suddenly miss him. Tears started to fall while your mind keeps scanning the time you spent together.  You remember all the events and even the words he told you vividly while you were together. You can't forget his scent, his voice and his laughs. You know exactly how he makes you laugh even with just ordinary jokes. His whole being is written in your mind.

A certain point in your life when you told yourself to move on but in reality you are still in denial of what you wanted to do. You still drench yourself from the emotions that make you smile and cry at the same time. The wise men say, "Time heals all wounds" but for you it doesn't apply. It has been several months since you haven't talked and yet you still leave a big space for him in your life. A hope seems impossible but since you believe in miracles, you still hold on to that tiny light that makes you going. You hope that he feels the same but half of your brain tells you not to. A heated debate is going on your mind every time you remember him. There are many things that remind you of him which sometimes back you off in doing it but you can't because you wanted his memories to be alive in your life even it means sleepless nights nor wet pillows and swollen eyes in the morning.

Life is full of surprises as you always tell your friends and deep inside your humanity, you believe that one day life will surprise you with a gift - him.