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Your conversation deepened and you both reminisce the time you were together. You felt happy but at the same time disappointed for he wants you back. Your instinct tells you not to believe hence you are just riding on to what he's telling you. Then it came to the point when you can no longer hold it and you spoke out, told him what happened and had done after your break-up. You told him everything you felt which you kept to yourself for a very long time. You told him you were ruined when you heard he got a new girlfriend several weeks after your break up. So you asked, how can you say you still love me if you were able to love someone else right after me? He answers, he needs to move on and that girl was available but then you are the one he's longing for.
You ride along again. You were together once again since you are sincere you still love him. However, something is bothering you. The other side of your brain has been trying to tell you something and you've been trying to listen. Revisiting the time you were together, you discern that he has changed a lot. In the past, he can't bear not sending you a good morning or a good night message. But now it is way different, he can live without knowing how you're doing. He's not as sweet as before and he's totally a different person in your perspective. You tried to reach out thinking he's having problems but nothing can deny it.
You decided to shut off what you feel. Now, your entire humanity doesn't seem to call his name, miss him nor care for him. The love you felt slowly lost its brightness until all about him became dark. A darkness you're ready to step out from and fill your entirety with the beauty of light of the other side of life without him.
You're numb and it makes you feel happy.
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