Is This How It Should Be?

 

I lost myself in love, 

surrendered every inch of me 

to someone who never cared enough

to see the beauty I could be.

 

I thought I knew what love was 

but it was only an illusion. 

A fleeting feeling 

an empty buzz that left me with confusion

 

I gave and gave and gave 

but never received in kind

I thought I could be brave 

and leave the past behind

 

But every time I tried to leave, 

the pull of love was strong

And I was back again, 

to the same place where I didn't belong

 

I lost my sense of self 

in the pursuit of someone else's heart

I put my dreams on a shelf 

and watched them slowly fall apart

 

I thought love was supposed to heal 

but it only left me broken

And every time I tried to feel, 

I found that love was just a token

 

A token of affection 

that meant nothing in the end

A mere fleeting connection 

that I couldn't even comprehend

 

So here I am, lost and alone 

with nothing but memories to hold

I wish I could have known 

that loving wasn't worth the toll

 

But still, I can't help but wonder, 

if I'll ever find my way out 

of the spell that I'm under

And step into the light of a brand new day.

Am I Worthy?

Sometimes I feel so small and weak,

As if I'm not enough, not meant to speak.

My worth feels lost, like it's out of reach,

And my confidence wavers with every speech.

I compare myself to others, and I fall short,

My insecurities take hold and become a sort

Of heavy weight, dragging me down,

I wonder if my worth can ever be found.

The world seems to demand so much,

And I struggle to keep up, to keep in touch,

With who I am, with what I want,

As if I'm always playing a game that's taunt.

But I know that I'm not alone,

That others feel this way, in their own zone.

And though it's hard to see my own light,

I know it's there, shining bright.

So I'll take a deep breath, and let it out,

And remind myself what I'm all about.

I'll focus on my strengths, my unique flair,

And remind myself that I'm worthy, that I'm there.